Thursday, October 26, 2006 | 8:10 pm

read at own risk

honey, can i still call u honey? look, u really dun haf to put urself thru dis, readin my blog dese few daes, cos yeah, u're rite, i've no rite to put ur mood down. so wadever's below, read at ur own risk, juz not on a rainy dae or a nite without stars.

im not angry, reali. after watchin princess hours, though its a diff situation (both lyk each other in dat situation), i do understand a lill bit more y im feeling dis way. its not anger i feel, its hurt. perhaps when u love someone n dis happens to u (i hope it'll nv ever happen to u, or anyone i noe), u'll understand wad i mean. i love u, probably dats y im feelin pain, not anger. i guess in dis situation u juz haf ta give me some time. i wish i could revert baq to e old way, listenin to ur dae, ur probs etc. but rite now it hurts, e memories hurt. i dunno wad u shuld do, i reali dunno wad i shuld do. when u dao-ed, it hurt lyk hell. yet again when u apologized, my soul bled. it just cuts str to e heart. i dunno, i guess dis feelin will get numb n more numb as time progresses, i guess its e way stuff works. i wish so much i could tok to u late into e nite again n it'll not hurt.

its not ur fault. it just hurts cos i love you.
i wanna be dere 4 u but it hurts.
i love u n it hurts.

rite now wadever we do or not do, it hurts. juz dun cut contact wif me completely, plz? i dun wanna be put thru hell. i still care abt u.

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