Sunday, February 18, 2007 | 12:52 am

i wanna be an m&m

hmmm, tot i'll add in a tot goin into e chinese new yr. i guess watching 2 romantic movies in a row, particularly e one abt dis blind guy n e gal dat fell in love wif him (e show was at midnite), yah, reali brought up some stuff i usuali tend to disregard. well, mebbe most guys tend to be quite visual (im sure y'all noe wad i mean), even i am guilty of dat sometimes. so its gd to always stop once in awhile n pause n tink, n rely on ur other senses to perceive stuff (ok yes, stop n smell e roses, hey, dey smell reali sweet). or other times juz to feel, in both meanings of e word la. alotta stuff has happened to mi over e past yr, stuff i'ld probably nv exp (cos of age, skool, other factors, ns coming up) n yes, e singapore skooling lyfestyle dat will be ending soon. oh well, i guess i'll rmb e nice stuff, e gd stuff, e sweet moments, i dunno, lol, always loved chocs when i was small, e raindrops on e window when it was raining in e nite which sparkled as it caught e streetlight below, against e dark quiet backdrop. beautiful. n hearin a nice sweet voice over e fone. i couldnt haf asked 4 more, except to wish she was beside mi. oh well...

neways okie baq to my tot. i guess to be e perfect guy, one must emulate an m&m! yes, e humble small lill m&m. hard on e outside, soft on e inside to put it simply. hard on e outside as in abit tough, masculine, strong, n oh yes, e colours, colourful!, exciting, flashy?, cute!!!, eye-candy, literally. on e inside, soft, sweet, tasty :P, interesting?, rich (no, not monetary), thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, understanding, sensitive. well, i've tried, to be, i've always tried to be. but lyk anybody, i cant be e perfect m&m )= sighz. i tried my very best. but try as hard as i might, i juz am not enuff, i just fall short. its lyk, mi when i was p6, mugging so hard for psle (i started since feb dat yr u noe) n in e end missing e mark for ri by 1 pt. it reali sux to be sidelined despite all i've been put thru whether it be my will or not. haiz. bleahx, wanted it to be a happie post. nvm la. i still wanna be an m&m.

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